Ready...Set...Go...

Day 1

I have been at 8mg for about three years now. I have had many many failed attempts at dropping but it hasn't seem to last very long. I seem to think Suboxone is a miracle drug that can help me cope with stress. IT DOESN'T! I am mentally weak so at the same time I can tell myself that but I don't really feel it. I go to the doctor next week and I want to drop dramatically before then. Tomorrow will start at 4mg for the next few days until I see my doctor. I am going to try really hard to stay working 4mg. I am also working on trying to be more active. I also take an anti depressant and anxiety medication I feel would benefit me to get off of too, so I really want to crack it and get off of it. Something with opiate receptors and endorphin's that go hand in hand so even though withdrawals are coming I have no choice but to keep my butt moving. I can do this. Please pray for me. I will keep everyone up to date as much as possible during this process because that is what this blog is about. I am on a different time schedule then most people so some times it might be hard for me to get an entry in every single day. But I will try. Have a good day folks and wish me luck!